Music

Music can be violent. And a stress-reliever if you don't like cutting.

Anyways, a few weeks ago in the magical world that is the PSF, my one friend (or Mang as I call them) yancyestacio said something about Elmo's being suicidal.

Elmo's?

I'm using my iPad. Excuse anything that doesn't make sense.

So, another one of my friends and I told her that all emos weren't suicidal.

But, then, it was kind of played out when I posted about drinking Windex a few weeks later...

Whatever. How ironic.

Anyways, music.

Music can always be a simple stress-reliever.

If you like violent music, I suggest Dubstep or heavy Electronica/House.

If you like just...regular violent...then...enjoy it.

But, the point of it is just...enjoy your music if you don't cut or want to harm others or yourself.

I love you, angels.

haveaniceday.

Cuts & Blood

So, cuts are bloody. Especially if you cut deep.

Please don't cut deep, take a picture of it and send it to me. Why did I just post a link to my email address? Dunno.

So, if you feel sad and depressed and want to cut, here's some tips.

1: Take a knife. Sharp objects other than a knife won't work or have the same effect. Knifes work best and are easier to wipe the blood off or just peel away the flesh if you want a large effect. I could never think of doing that. Peeling away the flesh...no. Just no.

2: Hold the blade so it touches your skin. If you want a light cut, do that so it just touches the skin. Deep cuts, hold it into your skin.

3: Now, slide the knife. Depending on what cut you want, deep or light, it'll hurt either way. Never did a deep cut. I don't think they'd be that...uh...great. They'd hurt a lot more though.

And, you have successfully cut yourself. Yay.

Cut yourself if you must. From one emo to another, cutting may be a stress-reliever but, others will worry.

Whatever. Screw them. They hate you.

And, don't cut if you don't want to see blood. Cuts are bloody

haveaniceday.

New Blog

Hello, friends. I am Katrina, if you did not meet me yet or I have not greeted you yet.

This is mostly a blog where I...share my feelings...I guess...

Mostly a dark...sad...depressed blog about my messed up mind.

Nothing really exciting happens in my life. Suicidal thoughts keep rushing to mind. I used to post about it on the PSF and no one believed me. Well, some did but, they worried about me. Being Kat Allen or "KitKatAllen", I feel no one cares about me in this world most of the time. That is why I am suicidal.

I drank Windex. I cut myself until I bled too much. I try to drown myself. But, it doesn't work. It never does! No one wants me in this world so, why is it so difficult to die? I can't. Whenever I try, I'm reminded of the family I do have and my online friends. And my future. And the homeless man I helped get a home. But, I don't know if they'd even care.

*sigh* Life is tough when the only friends you have are online.

Wait...possibly, I could contact them.

Maybe, just maybe, I could ask them which city they live in, go to that city (my family does a ton of traveling) and try to reach out to them. Not stalk them but, possibly meet them. Personally.

Stupid and risky idea.

Well, I must go to Tennis. And re-do my eye makeup. It has drained from all the tears.

Goodbye, friends.

haveaniceday.